sink under.
There could be fog
Or maybe just a mist
And inexplicably I'll fade to white
Vanish, and be gone
Or it could be night
And I'll be darkly dressed,
Evading easy definition
And as your eye's distracted
By a falling leaf
I'll merge with restless shadows
And be gone
Then you will discover
What emptiness is
A space so hollow
Even its own walls are swallowed up
A quality of missing
So intense
A lack, a lack
Each hour more bottomless than the last
Until your heart cries out,
A howl of forfeiture
But it will be nothing
Ashen silence where I used to sing
And deafness
The howl must strike the right resonant frequency
A wail that echoes all to the ends of time
To fill the gaping void in whole, looping wavelengths
From the well of your soul, such loneliness
To make Siberian wolves hang heads for shame
In their convivial packs
Then, only then
Might you detect my footprints, indistinct
Marking the morning dew fall
Perhaps glimpse a puff of breath
in the cold, dawn air
You must utter
A howl so desolate, it
Jerks you from your sleep
To find me warm beside you on your pillow
And you will know how
Close you were to the brink
Of the abyss
And know what missing is
And hold me.
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the livin one.
JEWW.
taurus.
ball thru the hoop is my game
OUTDOORS and clubs.
APPLOGIST
EMOTIONS.
talking, laughing, loving, breathing,
fighting, fcuking, crying, drinking,
writing, winning, losing, cheating,
kissing, thinking, dreaming.
LIST
suspenders
overolls
convrse bball shoes
timberland baggg
braunbuffel wallet
adidas sbs
adidas jacket
ipod video
MACbook pro
limegreen G-shock watch
adidas cap
DUN HAVE MY SIZE! ):
havanas sandles
E.A / adidas shades
black blazer with white strips
clothes pls :)
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
I SWEAR ILL NEVER GET SICK AGAIN DURING THE REST OF MY IHP!!!seriouslyy.. i dunno watz worse.. being well n going to school or getting sick and staying at home.. well.. most will choose the latter i suppose? but i rather go school!!!! my lecturers are too over friendlyyyy!! n they have no idea.. NO IDEA dat they killin me with the over-friendliness!!!
my partner, winnie, msged n called me today la.. wanted to get my hse add.. coz one of the lecturers wanna come n visit me at my house?! like huh?!!
how many times in ur life have a tr act. told u that he wanna drop by ur hse to visit u coz ure sick?! mayb once?! or mayb not even once?!?! n he act. wanted to do so..?!
n i've more den one call from the lecturers askin how am i etc etc?!! how scary..
sighs.
dear teachers / lecturers..
its very much appreciated but cant all of u just let me rest at home in peace?! as a student im qt sure u wldnt wan ur lecturer to call u let alone visit u right?! i really tot i cld rest at home n recuperate in p e a c e. apparently dat aint the caseee.. i was freaked out laaaa.. o.0
jeopardize my restin day..
alright.. im feelin 'floaty' again.. prob effect from the medi.. im slpin~!
nights world!
. stared 8:00 AM